I just spent the last twenty minutes writing a blog that is now nonexistent due to technical mishaps. Don't you hate those? I do.
Anyways, I have been reading all of your blogs from a far and i figure it’s about time i join in on this little world. I love love love people who can speak to others through writing. You people who can pull a masterpiece out of nowhere. Your fingers flow over the keyboard effortlessly--it’s a work of art, really, it is.
I want so badly to be able to put my thoughts into words, but I have too much going on in my head at all times. Over the years I have had countless journals; they just never were written in for more than a few weeks at a time. Its not that i have nothing to say, I just have too much to say! It’s called ADD. And I am not being sarcastic when I say I am a victim. You can ask anyone who is close to me (or my doctor haha). Especially Chris. Writing him for the past year has been quite an adventure. I promise he can say he has laughed a time or two when reading my letters. Not because of a funny story, but because of how amazingly fast I can get distracted. I tend to get off topic a lot. Yes, I am a rambler. Chris and I call these moments “hanna rants.” I’m sure many of you have done those before. But, I assure you I am the queen.
There are just so many ideas i want to express. I AM ALWAYS THINKING. It’s overwhelming. It can cause me to be a very quiet person. People who don’t know me as well think I am shy, but it’s more that I am…oh what’s the word, reflective? I am always taking in my surroundings, deep in thought. (Although, I can be shy as well.) But because of this, I suppose people might assume I’m a loner. Call me what you wish, I have my friends!
Getting back to what I was trying to say-I admire those people who bring journals/notebooks with them wherever they go. Those people who are constantly jotting down thoughts, ideas, notes. I want to be that person. I want people to know what goes inside my head.
And that is why I am starting this blog. It’s a fresh start, a new beginning, an attempt to make my thoughts, my emotions, and my life clear. Even if no one ever reads this, this is for me.
I hope that this will last much longer than any of my previous journals.